P/S 33 : 1,2,3,4

sorry I frightened you yesterday
those word that I said
it was meant to be an ordinary joke
I admit
I still cant really control my anger fully
whenever I heard about him
I would never trust whatever **** he said

1.Thanks for not taking it too seriously.


You left klang the 2nd time
and this time you are few hundred miles away from me
going back hometown
going back to celebrate CNY with more relatives
I hate to say goodbye
that's why I smile at you
when I sent you back yesterday

2.Thanks for loving me that much, my angel.


I missed you already
You have accompany me going around my friends' house
I worry that it might be boring one
yet everytime I look at you
you will propose a smile to me
a very very sweet one
with the smile
tiredness will be automatically gone

3.Thanks for accompanying me until your mummy also jealous already


I cough
terribly
you are in the same condition too
yet all you care the most is me
reminding me not to simply eat biscuits
and drink more water
I'm touched.

4.Thanks again for concerning me and taking care of me.



P/S : 1,2,3,4. Thank You ! 3 times of 'yan wo' from left side.

take care

17-2-2025

P/S 32 : Valentine / CNY

it's Valentine's day today
with all the colourful fireworks out there
the view of the sky
is still dark in colour

Chinese New Year
and Valentine's day
the final clash of titans has arrived

5 days of agonizing moment
you're miles away from me
I miss you

the card I made for you
the memories that belonged to us
the Tee shirt I lend you
the love and affection between us
the emotions of both of us
the obstacles that lies in front of us
all of that
link us together...



P/S : Valentine / CNY

love.miss

14-2-2025

P/S 31 : picture tells it all

L.0.V.3

P/S : picture tells it all

Valentine's day

memories of

mango and bangkia

13-2-2025

P/S 30 : 不知不觉，咖啡也喝完了

今天刚从梦中苏醒的他，把视线抛出窗外，眺望着那有点阴沉沉的天空。微微的暖风把死气沉沉的树，吹得摇摇摆摆地，那瞬间的画面，变得生气勃勃了。他笑了。外头所晒着的衣服，他还觉得有点懒得去收。喝着一杯能让他感觉到平静、温暖的咖啡。手里握着电话，跟他最心爱、关怀、疼爱的人传着简讯。

他，还在担心着她的脚板，害怕那伤口会细菌感染，担心会发炎；也焦虑会肿痛。他只能做的，只是一直用消毒药水替她洗伤口。

他还记得，当他发现她额头上冒出了一颗小小痘痘时，他关心地问说：

“是不是每次我吻你的额头才会有的啊？”

调皮的她回答：

“那是爱的象征啊…”

他心头涌上一股热，微笑着，然后轻轻地往她的额头吻了一下…


写着写着，他一口一口地吸着咖啡…



P/S : 不知不觉，咖啡也喝完了

平静的心情

还带有点焦虑

10-2-2025

P/S 29 : 这些，我都学会了毫不吝啬地说

看着你，睡着的模样，心情平静了好多。昨晚没睡的你，头靠在我的肩上，累乎乎的呼吸，有节奏性的吹在我脸颊上，偶尔发出声音。我猜，你应该是在做梦吧？轻轻的，我的右手抚摸着你的头，安抚你，让你更加地入眠，睡得甜甜的。我用我的心，去感受，承接你内心里所绽放的热情、关心及爱的烟花。这样，真的就足够了。

有时候的我们太在乎对方的感受，害怕对方受伤，这只因为我们太爱对方了。


“谢谢你”
“我爱你”
“好爱你”
“不客气”


P/S : 这些，我都学会了毫不吝啬地说…

宁静的夜晚

宁静的我们

宁静的幸福

9-2-2025

P/S 28 : your angelic smile, my soul

you're my soul
you're my heart
you're the reason
my heart beats

I always share cold jokes and tease you, and you like to tickle me. All of these, has been stored in my biological memory card. We both dislike taking any photographs, as we are not photogenic. Both of us always look each other as a very precious stone, the one that should be pampered the most. Our love and affection, only both of us understand it well. Because it belongs just to both of us.



P/S : your angelic smile, my soul

beating heart

pumping love

7-2-2025

P/S 27 : I smiled

That's the way I look at this world
it's so beautiful
and it always does
although sometimes
the roads ahead are bumpy one

Like those conventional lovestory
that usually touches its reader

Love
it's a huge lesson to be learnt
in my life indeed

I like when you laugh
I like when you smiled
I like when you happy
I like when we share
happiness
sadness
problems
and I like when you say " Thanks for appearing in my life... "



P/S : I smiled.

It's another day

5-2-2025

P/S 26 : Hope your thumb okay

It's another tiring day
loads and tonnes of work
even with all that
I am still worrying about you
your exhausted face
your hungry stomach
what I can do
is just giving you a little smile
just to cheer you up
and keep you going

I know
it hurts
when your thumb is injured
and now with bruises
My heart
cracked and shattered on the floor
when I see your swollen thumb
I will put ointment on that bruises everyday
until your thumb is fully recovered


P/S : Hope your thumb okay

No matter what happen,
I will always take care and worry of you
more than myself.

3-2-2025

P/S 25 : Smart! No doubt! You're right! It's you!

Do you need a dictionary in your hand while reading my blog?
Does a normal human being cry that often?
Do you have to be such a hypocrit?
Don't you think, the more you act, the more pathetic you are?
Are you trying to get her attention and ask for her sympathy?
Don't you think you're childish enough?
Can you please stop bugging around?
When are you going to stop all the stalking?
Don't you think you are just a perfect retarded moron joker?
Don't you think what you're doing right now is such a preposterous act?
When are you going to grow up and be like a man?
Are you going to continue all the stalk on me?
Are you going to add me in facebook or messenger?
Can't you just move on?


If you could,
When are you going to do so?
How are you going to do so?

The way you think, the way you act, the way you respond, it's crystal clear, a very prematured one.
To be frank, I am a little surprised that you found my blog though. Good job!

Read it clearly, words by words and ask yourself at least once before you leave my blog...



P/S : Smart! No doubt! You're right! It's you!

Hello

2-2-2025

P/S 24 : 我会好好爱着你

看着你
疲惫的模样
躺在沙发上
看了
叫人担心和焦虑

好想让你好好休息
抚摸着你乌黑的头发
我微笑了
能够天天看到你
吐吐舌头
微微笑
互相关心
放工后的宵夜

“燕窝”
“冬虫夏草”
“长长眼睫毛”
“我很健康的”
“你赢咯”
“我厉害的”

每次当我说一些很深奥的东西时，你傻傻的看着我的眼神，和每次的“谢谢你”，甚至是“我爱你”，一直都在我脑海里浮现。这些精彩的点点滴滴，点缀了我黯淡无色的世界…



P/S : 我会好好爱着你

爱。雨爱

1-2-2025

P/S 23 : Extraordinary You, My Angel

At last
I meet you again
after 2 days of suffering
I couldn't bear such feeling
of missing someone terribly
Perhaps
it's one of the reason I got insomnia yesterday night
my mind couldn't stop thinking of you

At last
I meet you again
and bring you
to meet up with my parent
for the first time
I know you are nervous about it
I hope my parent makes you feel comfortable
not stress and pressure though

I'm here
to say sorry
if there's anything that I've done wrongly
since we were together
Thanks for always be at my side
and support me in every aspects
You Are My Motivation of Life...


P/S : Extraordinary You, My Angel

It's you

that made me smile

and believe in

happily ever after

31-1-2025

P/S 22 : I miss someone, a very special one !

This note
has it's own unique meaning
as number 2,
means a lot to you...

I started to miss you badly
worrying that you might catch a cold there
as a reminder
I keep on ask you to put on another cloth
and take care of yourself

I know
you afraid that
I would worry
that he might find you in the ball night
Everytime I talk about him
my head will full of fiery breathe
But frankly,
I will feel a little umcomfortable with jealousy
but it's healthy to do so sometimes, right Mango? XD

I will take care of myself here
Hopefully my cough will get better soon
As soon as possible
so that you won't worry too much about me...

just 2 days....
very fast de....



P/S : I miss someone, a very special one !

@@

29-1-2025

P/S 21 : it touched me deeply

I started to worry
when today afternoon
I didn't see you
I realised
it makes my imagination gone wild
thinking of what's happening to you

At night,
My tears
dropped a little
My heart
broke a little
Seeing you
feeling pain a lot
in your back
when I hugged you in my chest

Thanks for buying those ointment and herbal medicine for me. I know it costed you not cheap, and yet you wouldn't tell me the price. But as you said, in chinese,

“你照顾好自己，不生病，酱，我就不用花钱了咯，对不对？”

I smiled after you said those words. Those words, warmed my heart a lot... Thanks, for taking care of me. Thanks for being beside me. My life, become colourful just because of your appearance.



P/S : it touched me deeply.

Touched

27-1-2025

P/S 20 : 因为我爱你

因为他的出现
你
伤心地掉了眼泪
担心我受委屈
担心麻烦到我
担心我会不好受
这些
我都知道

我们俩抱在一起
我抚摸着你的头
静静的安慰着
正在哭泣的你
其实
不好受的应该是你吧？

我真的没想到
我会选择相信
让你和他见面单独谈谈
这一切
只因为…



P/S : 因为我爱你 =)

傻笑着

26-1-2025

P/S 19 : This is our LoveStory

Our LoveStory
a never ending story...
soon,
I realised
My grammar are way too poor
for me to picturise Our LoveStory
But there's one thing I've gotta say
Thanks
for choosing me
as your guardian angel
and being my guardian angel as well
Thanks
Mango.....


P/S : This is our LoveStory

closing his eyes

recalling every sweet moment

25-1-2025

P/S 18 : I Love You

I remember the time
we sit next to each other
we had few chat
and there were several times
we remained silent
I looked into your eyes
and your smiled at me
we kissed that night
it will be forever
a very memorable and sweet moment
we hugged each other tightly
and closed our eyes
enjoying every second we had
each other
side by side
whispering at ears of each other
and said...



P/S : I Love You

with love

23-1-2025

P/S 17 : 谢谢你，我爱你。

当天凌晨，你靠在我的肩旁上，而我的头则靠在你的头上。阵阵发香，传到我的鼻子里。

经过了一些不开心的事，我陪着你；你陪着我，我只想逗你笑，不再让你在伤心流泪。

静静的，我坐在你的身旁，零距离地看着你的双眼。听着时钟秒针的倒数，延迟着我回家的时间，好舍不得那种感觉。那种靠在一起、聊聊天、微微笑、不吭一声的默契。我叹气了好几十次，仿佛心头有个沉重的大石，直到…

“对不起”你突然对我说。

我很好奇地看着你。很惊讶的表情。

“谢谢你” 你接着说道。

刹那间，我心头涌上了一种莫名的感动及因让你感到的愧疚而不舍得。我强忍着眼泪。一直在傻笑着。紧握着你的左手，然后很低声地回应 : “也谢谢你。”

你仿佛察觉到我的双眼带有泪光，右手靠在我的左脸颊，问道：“你…在哭泣吗？别吓我…”

我看着你，笑了笑。望着时间一秒一秒地流逝，手牵着手，头靠着头，珍惜着这所有一切的一切。

临走前，我对你说：“我们明天还能再见面的啊…”对你笑了笑，安慰着靠着我的你。

“可是明天见面，却不能像现在这样子啊…”你很不舍得的回答我说。

我忍不住，亲了你的额头一下，十指紧扣着，摸摸你的头，然后对你微笑。

看见你心情好转，我真的放下心头大石。但愿，我能一直在你身旁陪着你。



P/S : 谢谢你，我爱你。

感动的幸福

21-1-2025

P/S 16 : Mango, stay healthy and happy

it seems like
you're extremely tired
it took me 15 minutes to wake you up from your afternoon nap
my heart broken
knowing that you're overloaded
with tonnes of work
you often skip meals
because you don't have enough time
to just even rest and breathe
and that's very unhealthy
although I experienced the same things too. =p



P/S : Mango, stay healthy and happy

a little worry but happy

20-1-2025

P/S 15 : It's a letter for him

Being a hypocrit, don't you feel tired? I am already.
I thought, you're just a hypocrit, but what you did today, are way too ridiculous and hilarious.
You made yourself nothing better but a joker.
Are you sure, we born in the same year? I started to doubt with that fact.
I know, I might look a little younger than my actual age. But for you?
Come on. I thought you are the one who called me to think and consider things with maturity, right? Yet, did you?
I thought, you will take care of her. Yet, I ain't see nothing. A total nil from you.
Aren't you matured enough? Or it's just a mask that you wear all the time?
Then please, tear it off, just be yourself and not faking around.

I'm sorry if I said things too hard here. But, you leave me no choice...


P/S : It's a letter for him

wicked

19-1-2025

P/S 14 : You know, I know

You came to my house today
to see me bath my dog
and of course,
I know
your another intention
is to watch me play piano
I know
you're tired and extremely exhausted
you hugged a pillow with you
and rest your head on the cushion
It's kinda relieved for me
to see the look of yours
resting comfortably on the cushion
I peeped many times
while your eyes still closed
I touched your head a few times
to wake you up eventually
I know
we are impossible
after few consideration
I am awake from my sweet dream
after what happened yesterday
I saw him
well, being a hypocrit
I endured the pain
a pain that's too hard for me to hide in my heart
I know
you know
I feel hurt
after what happen yesterday
the collision between me and him
the more I had some deep consideration
the more I thought
I am the cause
for your confusion
for your problem
for your unstable emotions
There's several times
I had thought
to just finish the 3 months
and leave everything behind
and turn it into sweet memories
I know
you are confused
You know
I am confused too.
But there's one thing we both don't know
What lies between us in the future



P/S : You know, I know

but

even myself don't know

how deep I had fall for you

18-1-2025

P/S 13 : Isn't it?

Hilarious enough
I've got myself the best joke ever
I couldn't agree more...
You better take care of her more than I do......................

P/S : Isn't it?

nice warn

hypocrit

17-1-2025

P/S 12 : I just wanna look into your eyes

It's ridiculous
I realised that
even though I get to know you
not more than 1 month
I had deeply fall for you
Just at the moment I stepped into the office
I heard someone called my name
there's 2 girl student teasing you
little that I know
they got your handphone
and read thru our messages
We both blushed at that very moment
Later that night
you helped me carried my bag
with your white outfit
my white bag suits you perfectly
we headed to a seminar and course registration
because I haven't really made up my mind
so I decided to just stay unregistered
on the way fo and back
We chat thru text messaging
although we sit in the same car
You became seriously quiet
and you texted me that you just wanna stay like that
and listen to my voice
We had a few eye contact though
I just hope that time will freeze and stay
at the time when we look at each other...


P/S : I just wanna look into your eyes

you looked pretty

in long sleeves white Tees

written on 16-1-2025

P/S 11 : He could hardly control his emotion

We chat via Friendbook...

when the boy ask the girl
about the time when sparks started
the girl told him everything
every good details about him
he remain silent
because at that very moment
the boy drop his first tear
for the girl
he feel grateful
he feel relieved
his hormone covered every nerves
he smiled as the girl continue her typing
he dropped
tears of joy while looking at the chat message
he smiled a couple of times
Because he knows
sooner or later
reality will wake him up from the dream...



P/S : He could hardly control his emotion that night.

eyes closed

memory flashed

15-1-2025

P/S 10 : Life's all bout choices

So close yet so far.

This is the 4th time packing food with you

and it's the 1st time driving

you sit beside me as passenger.

Even though it's not my car

but I'm glad for having those memories

After few chat last night

I only realised that the reason you cried

it's because of me.

it's because you found my blog.

I feel a little relieved.

we talked and speak out what's deep inside our bottom heart

We both know

Yet choice has to be made.

and we stay

as good friend...

P/S : Life is all bout choices.

I feel numbness

15-1-2025

P/S 9 : I hope you're just fine.

I saw the name
it's on the display screen
of your LG ice-cream
I know the possibility is near zero
for just you and I
But I had a faith
A faith that only appear few times in my life
The computer inside the office
is playing all kinds of love songs
For some reason
I smile
listen to your voice
sing along those songs
I cheered
it's the only thing I got
to inspire me
to make me continue aspire
to draw
to do everything
to just even stay alive...

We headed to station one that night
your tears
drop again
I would never know the reason that made you cried
I guess you miss your family too much
even though many things ran over my mind
Yet,
I still feel so helpless
you just sit in front of me over the table
maybe
it's because I'm useless...



P/S : I hope you're just fine and happy always.

It's better to stay still.

calmed on 14-1-2025

P/S 8 : okay, but for me, you're perfect too.

You did care about me
there's been many times
you asked me to take care of myself
while working
everytime I feel tired
or even exhausted
a simple smile of yours
rejuvenated me totally
I am surprised
that you still remember
about the umbrella thing
I found out
recently you weren't that happy
I know there's something
that is bugging you
Sometimes I had a rush
and feel like going forward and comfort you
You always say that I'm perfect
Yet I know
Even with my perfection
you and I
forever will be a distance apart
I know
you are always the winner
Cause you're way too cute for me to even argue with you
your smile
melted my heart 100%



P/S : okay, but for me, you're perfect too.

I smiled alone

written on 13-1-2025

P/S 7 : I don't wanna know doesn't mean that I don't know.

Early in the morning
my phone buzzed
"dun forget ur breakfast n lunch...rest well... =)"
I know
even that's only a little concern
to a friend like me
even you will forget it someday in the future
but for me
that text message
represents a huge meaning personally

Today
is a better day than yesterday
Even though I heard the boy's name today, again
I never been feeling such calm before
"I have to be confident to myself"
I said to myself
Thanks for being my side
when I am painting the wall of a classroom
Even it's already late night
and you have tonnes of works yet to be completed
Thanks for accompany me
and giving opinion while in the process of painting
We did have a little chat
Your voice
Your laughter
It's all very special one.
I couldn't stop thinking of the voice
when I'm alone
when I'm bored
when I'm sad
when I'm moody
and it started when u called me 'wenzi'.



P/S : I don't wanna know doesn't mean that I don't know.

=)

jotted on 12-1-2025

P/S 6 : I'm not perfect

Today
is a very bad day
indeed
Everyone in the working place doesn't seem happy
some even broke down uncontrollably
nothing much to describe
just troublesome complaints
troublesome parents
troublesome problems
Things turn worse
when I accidently heard that
u called the boy's name
I will angry
I will sad
I will envy
and that is because I'm just an ordinary human



P/S : I'm not perfect, as u said.

Another moody day

typed on 11-1-2025

P/S 5 : Rest well and cheer up

It's Sunday
after what happened last evening
I found out that
what I do care the most
is all about you
you went to the meeting
even you're exhausted
and it rained cats and dogs out there
before you step out from the tuition centre
I used my hands
to pose an invisible umbrella for you
you smiled
I never thought you would understand
what I am doing
until you texted me late yesterday night
and said
"thanks for your umbrella, it's very nice"
it warmed my heart a little



P/S : Rest well and cheer up

recovering mood
written on 10-1-2025

P/S 4 : I could hardly smile either

it was the 1st time you send me a text message
we went to a shopping mall
I realised,
the 3rd reason I like to walk behind you
so that I could smell the shampoo scent of your
dark
long
straight
hair
The scent
fills within the atmosphere
I am getting addicted.

It's another part of memo I wrote today
I know
you're tired and lack of sleep
and that worries me
my instinct never been so correct
in the late evening
you broke down
even it happens behind the door
my mood
slips down along the incident
I found out that
the undescribable feeling
overwhelmed the pain of my gastric
I wish I could help
I wish you could share with me
I wish I could reduce the burden
I wish I'm the one who suffer...




P/S : I could hardly smile either...

moody on 9-1-2025

P/S 3 : highs and lows

4th day of working
I started to adapt and mix well
2nd time of packing food with you
again I was few steps behind you
I still dare not look into your backview directly
but I peeped more this time
and now
I only realised that
my subconscious intention is just to be your guardian
that day was a rainy day
but a colourful rainbow appeared after the rain
it cheered me
everytime you appeared in front of me
I couldn't hold back
I just cant stop taking my eyes of you
I wonder
when can I end this uncertainty
that lies within my soul.



P/S : Highs and Lows.
: I sit next to you when we go for movie after work.
: I found out that you're not single.

jotted on 8-1-2025

P/S 2 : I drew you

the time
when I was just few steps behind you
everything seems unreal
I dare not look directly and just face down
because I really afraid
that I can't stop taking my eyes
of your backview
worrying that you might suddenly turn around
everytime when I closed my eyes
the backview of yours
became incredibly clear
just so weird
just so magical
I said it once
Thank You God
for giving me another chance
to meet another angel of my life
perhaps the most unforgettable one.

P/S : I drew you. I added you in Friendbook

texted on 7-1-2025

P/S 1 : until I met you

I became an assistant teacher in a tuition centre
A job which I, myself never try before
It's fresh for me and feel a lil' excited
I thought
it's a new kick start
a brand new environment and situation for me
to forget things that I don't wanna remember
I promise myself
that I would never touch L.O.V.E again



P/S : until I met you.

texted on 3-1-2025